See Through My Smile

What a day. I was all pumped this morning, I was geared up and ready to go see Umphrey's McGee rock out at the Brewing Co. You know I figured its been thre damn weeks since I last worked so I should get paid today. But, as my luck goes, I didn't get my check until 6. This kinda puts a damper on my plans since all the banks are now closed...damn. I just figured oh well. Shit happens. I thought that my motto would only last me for the summer, seems its workin out just as well now. But what can you do, right? So, instead we headed out for some crazy eats at Pizza King and watched The Mechanic starring Charles Bronson. Man did that movie blow. I had a good time making fun of it though. If you know me, you know thats my thing. I'm very good at making fun of movies. I should've been on Mystery Science Theater 3000. Anyway, I was running around town with Ryan listenin to one of my X-TREME!!!! mixes. By x-treme I mean its basically a bunch of love songs. Its good stuff though, took me by surprise that he knew half of the songs on there. It was good stuff, we were singing along to "When You Say Nothing At All" both versions by Ronan Keating and Allison Krauss. I love that song (I listen to it like 20 times everyday). I have no shame singing love songs out loud in my car, I don't care whos in it. But that brings me to my next point, Matt called me gay for listening to those songs with just Ryan in the car (once again no shame). He said that I needed to find myself a girlfriend, and the more I thought about it hes right. I'm a nice guy, I think I deserve to find some lovins. The thing is everytime I find someone I really truly care about, they don't feel the same. I'm ready to find love...I guess it just doesn't want to be found. It also reminded me of something that happened today in IED. I walked in and smiled, waved, and said hey to Whitney. She looked at me and said "You're happy today". I said I'm always happy. She fired back by saying you weren't two weeks ago. I was like shit. Whitney can read me like a book, its like she knows what I'm thinking. She can see through my smile. She was right, I can't lie. Yea, I was hurt a little bit, a lot...But, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Right? Anyway in case you didn't know, she was talking about Lauren going out with Paul. Like I said, sure it hurts, but I just want her to be happy and I'm happy for her. As long as she's happy, I am. With that said, I'm gonna go look at the second most beautiful thing in the world, the stars. I'm glad I'm taking astronomy, Klinger's fascination with the night sky has made me realize how beautiful it truly is. I highly recommend looking at it yourselves. You never know if who's watchin the stars the same time you are. Noticed how I said it was the second most beatiful thing in the world...guess what I think the first one is. Sweet dreams everybody...