Not Much To Say When You're High Above The Mucky Muck

No, I haven't died. No, I haven't given up on blogging. I just haven't had the time lately...thats a lie, I'm just too lazy to update. Here I am Monday morning, nothing to do, all alone again with you, my monitor, and my thoughts. There's a lot I could say tonight but I believe I will keep the best of it to myself. Some people know what I'm talkin about, and those are the ones who should know. I apologize in advance for this being a short one...thats what she said.

Dan's show was on Friday, I will call it Dan's show because Johnny C. really didn't do anything. He just sat on the couch and watched his beloved Jen Whitney play Pac-Man on her cell phone. I could tell it was going to be a rough night when the omen came in the form of all microphones being blown. There was no way to hear Johnny C. playing. I guess in that case I can't blame him for not doing anything. I also felt bad because the only people that ever pay attention to Dan play are myself, Scott, and ChelC. Everyone else just talks and comes to support Dan because they're his friends. I wish for once more people aside from us would just stop and listen to the lyrics. Dan called it quits when he broke his string, wasn't too good of a show for the Danimal. I still enjoyed it anyway. We went to Steak N' Shake afterwards, man was that a mistake. Never again will I go there with more than a party of 4, 3 would be perfect. It just didn't feel right. That and the fact that our waiter was treated like crap and common courtesy was broken by smoking in the non smoking section. Apparently "they didn't know". It was a pretty shitastic night. We ended up congregating later in my backyard. That seems to have become a fad as of late. It ended up being Dan and Scott with me 'til the end. I really wish ChelC would have stayed, would've made it that much better. We hung out until about 3 and then they headed out. Its nice to know that you can have people to talk to that understand everything.

Nothing really happened Saturday, I saved a friend. Thats all about I can remember. Thats all that mattered to me. I'm so glad I could help gain insight onto what is true. You know who you are, and I told you I cared. I did hang out with Scott at Pizza King while waiting for Dan to get off of work. I went to go pick up ChelC, and we met Dan and Scott and Wings. We wanted it to just be the 4 of us. Danny showed up unexpectly, but he only hung around for a little while. Once again we ended up at my house to talk, swim, enjoy Dan's music, and be free. I have achieved the task of turning a turtle shaped sand box into an outdoor urinal. Its all the rage in Granger...everyone peeing on a turtle. Once again, at this point, there is a lot of emotion and thought to say but I will keep it to myself. I come to find out that they went to breakfast without me that morning. I don't care, not like it won't happen again.

Tonight I just hung out with Scott. I wanted to drive and find where the nearest comic book store was. I had no intention of buying anything, I don't even know anything about comics. I just all of the sudden have the urge to want to work in a comic book store, don't ask me why. I just want to find something different. I've come to the conclusion that fomr now on, if I want something I'm going to go to hell and high water to get it. I want to work in a comic store. We drove around and Ian calls. We meet him at Family Video. We couldn't think of anything to do, so Scott and I decide as a joke that we will go take stuff out of Ben's car. Apparently this didn't seem funny to Ian, so he went his separate way. I guess thats too serious to take things out of your friends car, even if you are going to give them back. Anyway, Scott and I try to get a hold of ChelC and Dan. ChelC is dead tired and just wants to stay home. Sorry for waking you up ChelC...I guess after the 5th phone call we should've assumed you were sleeping. hehe. Sorry. Scott and I end up going to the prairie trails behind Prairie Vista. It is pretty cool for being as small as it is. It really has a feel of innocence to it. We messed around on the swings and stuff and it was just a good time. He talked about some things that happened there, special to him, that just made me wish I could express my feelings to certain people. We left there and headed to Pizza King to get some food. They were closed. We went to retrieve Dan, but alas, no one answered his door. We proceeded to Domino's where we just sat on the stairs outside and talked for about an hour or so and ate pizza. It was a pretty good night for it being just the 2 of us.

Now here I am, nothing to say and nothing to do. I'm going to leave you all with some songs that I wrote. I need to write some happy things, a lot has happened in this week and it makes me feel all that much better knowing that I had a hand in helping everyone in some miniscule way, shape, or form. Listen to the background music, what a beautiful face I have found in this place indeed. So...here's the songs hope you enjoy. Peace, love, and a toothy smile.

"Between Port And Starboard"

watching the sun
it rises over the ocean front
we're cast out at sea
I almost can see
the jersey shore
the tide sweeps us away
with dreams of ourselves, of nothing

and one last hope
we're drifting away
we've gone through this
if my timing's right
we'll leave here tonight
it's come to this
I need inspiration
throw me overboard

the last time you'll ever see
this shipwreck keeps me in check
straight ahead all I can see
I'll wait for you
will you wait for me?

directions lost
this message to you is what I sent
a glass bottle
the only way you'll ever know
the tide, currents are strong
sweep me away, away

the last time you'll ever see
this shipwreck keeps me in check
straight ahead all I can see
I'll wait for you
will you wait for me?

the skyline
gives me a sign
with shades of orange and white
and all I know
we're left alone
theres no way to find our way home
meet me somewhere
between port and starboard
you'll find me there
the hull just gave way
the ship is split in two
I reach for you

the last time you'll ever see
this shipwreck keeps me in check
straight ahead all I can see
I'll wait for you
will you wait for me?

the last time you'll ever see
this shipwreck keeps me in check
straight ahead all I can see
I'll wait for you
will you wait for me?

"Trials And Tribulations"

he's looking to be all you want
to die by your one command
he knows that if you said to jump
he would take dive head first
the trials and tribulations
of climbing up rails and falling
just a start to your methods of madness

'show me the way to go'
he'll ask of you now
never know, I wanted to
'give me advice'
take heed of consequences
all you need, once again

he counts down the seconds to midnight
your promise to him will remain
pleading guilty to all your crimes, taking blame
aspiring to have it all
he'd make any sacrifice
next stop, wherever you decide to drag him

'show me the way to go'
he'll ask of you now
never know, I wanted to
'give me advice'
take heed of consequences
all you need, once again

he's looking to be all you want
to die by your one command
he knows that if you said to jump
he would fall

'show me the way to go'
he'll ask of you now
never know, I wanted to
'give me advice'
take heed of consequences
all you need, once again

"Never A Reason"

Love can be a sacrifice, love can be bliss
love can be paradise after that first kiss
but some people never know what love's all about
because they never bother to find out

they all look for a reason, they all look for a drive
ignorant that the moment will not arrive
love is a struggle, and will always be
and there is a lesson thats been taught to me

theres never a reason for searching your heart
theres never a reason to get a fresh start
theres never a reason to take a chance
theres never a reason for romance

love is a privilege more than it is a right
its something given to those willing to fight
dont think its a prize, and dont think its a reward
cause compassions price is more than one can afford
everything that you do and everything that you say
will not make any obstacle go away
love can be gone in the blink of an eye
but there is no reason why you cannot try

theres never a reason for searching your heart
theres never a reason to get a fresh start
theres never a reason to take a chance
theres never a reason for romance

someone tell me
how can i be
more opt to love
see the light from above
someone help me
teach me to see
where love is shown
so that im not alone

they all look for a reason, they all look for a drive
ignorant that the moment will not arrive
love is a struggle, and will always be
and there is a lesson thats been taught to me

theres never a reason for searching your heart
theres never a reason to get a fresh start
theres never a reason to take a chance
theres never a reason for romance

theres never a reason to give it your all
theres never a reason to make that phone call
theres never a reason to take a chance
theres never a reason for romance