Shout Out

Yea hey this post is just a shout out to all of my homees and homesses and all you mothertruckers at Penn cause (Word Up) posse...posse havers..and givers of posse, alright whosever given me posse this is a shout out to you I thank you very much. I've gotten much posse over the years seriously I've gotten more posse in the last few years than Ian has in his whole life (I don't know if thats true but uh dude...) I have a really really big posse, its huge its like the freaking Grand Canyon. Ian has a freakin smelly posse, a big stinky posse. Well you know most of the time he's hanging out with his posse at smokey places like the Golden Cue and Wings Etc. I would know, we're a part of eachother's posse. It gets crazy. But yea, thats all I wanted to say for now. Wait...I lied, I've got some monkeys to get off my chest. I don't know why, but as of late I've been both really sad and really happy at the same time. I really don't want to ellaborate on why, because it might affect my friendships with people in a negative way. It might make certain people feel uncomfortable too, myself included. Its not really a bad thing since I am both equally mirthful and distraught. I'm just trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me (deep inside, I know I just can't tell anyone who'll understand) Its not that hard to figure out, if you pay attention, and it is blantantly obvious what my deal is. Thats enough about me and my neutrality. Something else that dawned on me yesterday, was how much I realize that I appreciate everything Lauren does. She is such a good friend. Its the people in my life like Lauren that make me happy. (not that I'm sad, I'm just saying) I guess today Paul made a giant douchebag move and said that he didn't love her. I don't understand their relationship. But then again, its not my place to ask. I just don't know how she can put up with him, he's always so negative about everything and he acts like no one cares about him. I don't know, I'm just rambling. Like I said, its not my place. I don't know if its right for me to say this, but I wouldn't want to be with someone who feels crappy about themselves and makes me feel the same way about myself. Its stupid. He's dumb, he has someone as good as that, and he says stupid ass things to make her feel like crap. It bothers me. That's why I had to play The Star Song for her. I'm telling you, if I could sing, I would sing that song to her everyday. Maybe I'll just pay Bowling For Soup to do it for me...they're cool, it wouldn't cost that much. I want her to know that she is beautiful. I'm truly blessed to have a best friend like her. I just want her to be happy, I can't stand to see her sad. It crushes me on the inside. Its like if you ever saw an angel crying. Nothing that beautiful should be sad. I hope she looks up pretty soon, I want happiness. If you read this Lauren...BE HAPPY DAMN YOU!!! Thats all I have to say about that. Going bowling this weekend, with Caitlin. Its gonna be a PARTAY!!! Everyone's invited. The more the merrier. Its a proven study, that the more people I have around me, the funnier I am. I can't wait. Speaking of Caitlin, hey sorry if I came off as being too strong, I didn't mean to. I'm laughing in my head at the thought of me being too caring. Its a bad habit. I'll break it, give it time. I just want to be friends with you Caitlin, if it elevates beyond that, so be it. Thats all. Alright, now I must go and play guitar. I MUST!!! Thanks again to all my posse. MUCH LOVE!!!